Need a new chapter in life

[rocket2]

Need to find a better job.
Need to move to another state.
Need true friends.
Need another woman to get married again.
Better life period.

I'm nothing but an outcast In
Streator.
Nobody wants anything to do with me.
Can't make friends,can't find another woman to have a relationship with again.
Neighbors want Nothing to do with me.
I come home they run in the house.
They stand out there gossiping about me .

God forbid hope none of you ever experience what I'm going through being alone ,
Living alone 24/7,being isolated cause nobody wants to be your friend.
Nobody wants to take a chance with me.
I'm not perfect.
I make mistakes.
We all do.

Nobody wants anything to do with me since my wife died.
Nobody!

I feel like I'm in prison.
Can't go anywhere at night,
Cause the local pd keeps harrassing me following me around .
Doesn't matter which way I go,
There sitting a couple blks away from my home.
City mayor and police chief apparently condone police harrassment.
Cause this has been going on now for alittle over a year now.
Got crime going on in this town and they rather harrass innocent people by following or repeated traffic stops on bs.

To me I'm not living a normal life.
More like living dead life.
All I want is a normal life again with friends and a wife
Being happy and police to leave me alone.
Tired of giving my heart away to people that don't care about me.
Tired of being used,lead on,lied to ,ect.

I just want true friends a wife and be happy again living a normal life like everyone else.
And to have good neighbors that will come see me talk to me instead of gossiping about me talking smack about me.
Being a good neighbor that cares and is trustworthy, honest ,doesn't gossip .
Is that too much to ask?
Really!

[gijane]

I hear self pity dripping from your every pore. My suggestion, seek professional help. And don't give that line I've tried that. Moving, new job, new neighbors..no matter where or what you do...you take you, with you.

[helencrump]

Dec 9, 2023 14:16:49 GMT -6 rocket2 said:

Need to find a better job.
Need to move to another state.
Need true friends.
Need another woman to get married again.
Better life period.

I'm nothing but an outcast In
Streator.
Nobody wants anything to do with me.
Can't make friends,can't find another woman to have a relationship with again.
Neighbors want Nothing to do with me.
I come home they run in the house.
They stand out there gossiping about me .

God forbid hope none of you ever experience what I'm going through being alone ,
Living alone 24/7,being isolated cause nobody wants to be your friend.
Nobody wants to take a chance with me.
I'm not perfect.
I make mistakes.
We all do.

Nobody wants anything to do with me since my wife died.
Nobody!

I feel like I'm in prison.
Can't go anywhere at night,
Cause the local pd keeps harrassing me following me around .
Doesn't matter which way I go,
There sitting a couple blks away from my home.
City mayor and police chief apparently condone police harrassment.
Cause this has been going on now for alittle over a year now.
Got crime going on in this town and they rather harrass innocent people by following or repeated traffic stops on bs.

To me I'm not living a normal life.
More like living dead life.
All I want is a normal life again with friends and a wife
Being happy and police to leave me alone.
Tired of giving my heart away to people that don't care about me.
Tired of being used,lead on,lied to ,ect.

I just want true friends a wife and be happy again living a normal life like everyone else.
And to have good neighbors that will come see me talk to me instead of gossiping about me talking smack about me.
Being a good neighbor that cares and is trustworthy, honest ,doesn't gossip .
Is that too much to ask?
Really!

I posted this on the PSA thread I made. Did you go?


“If anyone is dealing with depression we have an AMAZING program at Grace Community Church called Celebrate Recovery - Streator . We meet on Monday nights at 6 til 7 for a free meal then 7 to 8 for big group then 8 to 9 for smaller groups. This is an amazing program for all of life's hurts hang ups and habits.”

[antamaleen]

You have everything hinging on other people. Until you're happy with yourself alone, you won't be truly happy with anyone anywhere.

[bugeyed]

Dec 9, 2023 14:44:13 GMT -6 gijane said:

I hear self pity dripping from your every pore. My suggestion, seek professional help. And don't give that line I've tried that. Moving, new job, new neighbors..no matter where or what you do...you take you, with you.

You NEED psychiatric HELP as you think again THINK that YOU are the only one that has Issues. EVERYBODY has Bullcrap every f**king day, get out of your Whoa is Me BS and Kick YOURSELF in theassand MOVE ON AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT AND QUIT QUIT WHINNING EVERYDAY ON HERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Anonymous]

I agree that you need to get happy and at peace with yourself before introducing another into your life. I’ve read on here over the years you make the claims about your neighbors gossiping and Toshiko, who is your neighbor, has shot down those claims.

I think you need to reach out and talk to a professional. And, not mistake their attention or niceness as an overture to them being a potential suitor.

Moving isn’t going to solve anything because you will take all of your emotional baggage with you.

And, it looks like you do have true friends here Rocket yet you never take any of our advice.

[helencrump]

Anonymous has even offered to bring you thanksgiving dinner in the past.

You’ve had many offer suggestions on improving your outlook, but you refuse to try. You remind me of someone I know. Almost every day they post something negative, but refuse any invitations or suggestions.

Being happy is a choice. You can wake up and choose happy or misery. To choose happy, you open your eyes, and smile that you are alive. You jump in the shower and smile that there’s warm water.

Set the table for breakfast, even if it’s just toast. Hum a happy tune even if you’re off key. CHOOSE happy. Smile at other drivers on your way to work. Laugh at those who fly by speeding, and picture them being pulled over. But DONT lose your happy! Once you get used to smiling it will just come naturally. You won’t make friends with misery dripping off of you. No one wants to be around negative Nancy.

[Lucky1]

Rocket - St Paul's Lutheran Church is hosting the Blue Christmas service this year. It is a combination of denominations and is for people who are sad or depressed who still want to celebrate Christmas. It is 12/21 at 7:00pm. There will be cookies and lemonade following the service. Hope you will attend. I hope it would make you feel a little better. Wishing you the best.

[nessun vestiti]

Dec 9, 2023 14:16:49 GMT -6 rocket2 said:

Need to find a better job.
Need to move to another state.
Need true friends.
Need another woman to get married again.
Better life period.

I'm nothing but an outcast In
Streator.
Nobody wants anything to do with me.
Can't make friends,can't find another woman to have a relationship with again.
Neighbors want Nothing to do with me.
I come home they run in the house.
They stand out there gossiping about me .

God forbid hope none of you ever experience what I'm going through being alone ,
Living alone 24/7,being isolated cause nobody wants to be your friend.
Nobody wants to take a chance with me.
I'm not perfect.
I make mistakes.
We all do.

Nobody wants anything to do with me since my wife died.
Nobody!

I feel like I'm in prison.
Can't go anywhere at night,
Cause the local pd keeps harrassing me following me around .
Doesn't matter which way I go,
There sitting a couple blks away from my home.
City mayor and police chief apparently condone police harrassment.
Cause this has been going on now for alittle over a year now.
Got crime going on in this town and they rather harrass innocent people by following or repeated traffic stops on bs.

To me I'm not living a normal life.
More like living dead life.
All I want is a normal life again with friends and a wife
Being happy and police to leave me alone.
Tired of giving my heart away to people that don't care about me.
Tired of being used,lead on,lied to ,ect.

I just want true friends a wife and be happy again living a normal life like everyone else.
And to have good neighbors that will come see me talk to me instead of gossiping about me talking smack about me.
Being a good neighbor that cares and is trustworthy, honest ,doesn't gossip .
Is that too much to ask?
Really!

Brian, I am praying for you. I truly hope you find some peace of mind, and love.

[helencrump]

Dec 15, 2023 8:01:33 GMT -6 Lucky1 said:

Rocket - St Paul's Lutheran Church is hosting the Blue Christmas service this year. It is a combination of denominations and is for people who are sad or depressed who still want to celebrate Christmas. It is 12/21 at 7:00pm. There will be cookies and lemonade following the service. Hope you will attend. I hope it would make you feel a little better. Wishing you the best.

I recommended this to a friend and their family that just lost a family member. I hope there was a good turnout.